where is my lolli

2008-01-11T01:03:00.000+08:00

HELLO. I HAVE MOVED HERE.

2008-01-08T01:41:00.000+08:00

I miss school somehow. I miss my friends ): I just need a good laugh. HAHA

LIFE..... alright gng to work soon and im both excited and scared. Wonder if office job is for me. I love to fidget and move ard. Oh well lets see... hahaha OL YO.

Cant wait cant wait! :DDDDD

2007-12-23T22:07:00.001+08:00

Went KL with boyf and his family for 3days and now im back home. Have been very very tired. Spent most of the time with his little cousin. She's so super adorable and extra hyper, never gets tired. Too bad i dont have camera with me to take any pictures. Hopefully boyf will get them from his sis and send to me. (:

TOMORROW'S CHRISTMAS EVE!
Spending with boyf and his family and club later after service maybe

2007-12-08T01:43:00.000+08:00

My boyf's so cute and loving!

Isnt he adorable? HAHAHAH. I love you boyfriend!

2007-11-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

I still vividly remember our very first day of school at the new campus, seeing a whole new environment but with familiar faces called, friends (: and now its nearing the end of As means we will be leaving this new yet already looking old building, with its disgusting toilets and chocked up toilet bowls. But thankfully i will still have my friends with me (:

Bye Millennia Institute!

2007-11-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

End of exams in 4DAYS time!

2007-11-21T00:27:00.000+08:00

Its no always the north and south pole that attracts i realised.
Study hard everyone! Hard work pays, just ONE paper left
Will be over real soon!

LYNETTE WORK HARD, STOP THINKING TOO MUCH!
a veces realmente le odio

2007-11-15T00:51:00.000+08:00

Done with almost all my papers except for Accounting 2. Two weeks of break before my paper, last day last paper. Oh well, we will have a wonderful complete closure to the As. From now till 28nov, im quite empty i cant find anything to do except to study, which i think i need a slight break from it. Worse, boyf is going for exercise, which makes him stuck out of mainland till 22nd. WHY WHY WHY. Im going to miss him like crazy. All thanks to ns, its stealing boyf away from me all the time. I wish he'll be done with this army thing soon. So annoying cant tke it.

Part of me cant wait for As to end but part of me wants to go back to sch cos i knw if all of these were to end now, i'll be bored to death. So i'll seriously need a job to cover my expenses and to earn extra allowance for my shopping spree! I've totally not planned any shopping trip yet cos i'll have plenty of time to plan for shopping till next yr, no fear!

I love my boyf alot and he loves me too <3

2007-11-06T21:25:00.000+08:00

Half of As has gone by just like this somehow i feel that its too fast for me to accept this speed of progress. I think this amount of stress that is piling up is making everything inside me feel uncomfortable. Lately insecurity started to set in. I get so afraid of losing the things that im having now that i dontknw what am i to do to keep things the way they were before i was feeling this way. My emotions just keep getting the better of me. Perhaps im too paranoid that at times i get too protective over things that are already good. All i need is some assurance now. Will you do that please?

I do hope things will remain as they are but externalities are hitting me off. Time and assurance are all i need.

2007-10-13T15:02:00.000+08:00

It's always easier said than done. I always set targets for myself but they hardly ever come true. How am i to survive these remaining days of i-know-As-is-coming fear when i dont even know how to push myself to study even harder. My motivation stopped halfway i wonder where i lost it but im fearing. You know the feeling when you know what ure doing isnt right but you're just not doing anything to salvage it. Something like that. Alright shall go watch some stunt awards then history essay which i owed. Much love all

2007-10-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

Dyan Goh thinks you are Most Likely To Forget What They Were Saying Mid Sentence
Phoebe Wong thinks you are Most Likely To Have Imaginary Friends
Ho Caihua thinks you are Most Likely To Embarrass Themself in Public
Phoebe Wong thinks you are Most Likely To Push on a Door that Says Pull

HAHAHAH with friends like these, who wont feel loved. IDIOTS

love la love la

2007-10-07T21:08:00.000+08:00

Stupid ns taking boyf away all the time ):

Life has been great for me, minus the frightening exams and results. Spending almost everyone with boyf, apart from the times when hes in camp. I like it when we just chill at home and watch some tv, play some solitaire(YAY we managed to complete stage2 a thousand million times after failing many many times) and nope, no snacking. ITS SINFUL.

I admit that my results arent fantastic at all and all i need to do is just to work my damn ass off to reap what i sow. "ITS JUST FOR ONE MORE MONTH" thats what everyone says. I know that too hello but its the willpower that will keep me going i need some motivation that will totally drive me to study and not entertain any thoughts of defeat. And i realised what mdm lee said was right. When i write, i hardly have any fullstops, so right now, at this point in time i will just practice proper punctuations, putting them at the necessary places, like now. Or maybe not.

Breakfast tmrw with the girls before school. Whats there to be looking forward to when you know all you will get is just tonnes of stress but hotcakes are my drive for tmrw, MY ONLY MOTIVATION TO WAKE UP

2007-09-27T00:38:00.001+08:00

I hope everyone comes view my blog totally for once i wish everyone will come and read.

★ Starlet says:
WU PEI SHAN
★ Starlet says:
hahahahahahaha
★ Starlet says:
NO PEI SHAN
★ Starlet says:
WU = no existant
★ Starlet says:
therefore WU PEI SHAN = NO PEI SHAN
★ Starlet says:
therefore dyan goh pei shan not existant

Llaf says:
HAHAHA OMG THATS REALLY LAME
Llaf says:
kill me stab me totally

Seriously, STAB ME SOMEONE hahahha entertainment before bed

2007-09-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

My lazybones are not getting me anywhere THIS IS BAD BAD BAD. Been spending too much time playing seriously need to start now before my future will end here. As isnt as easy as i imagined it to be. SIGHSIGHSIGH

2007-09-16T00:59:00.000+08:00

HATE HISTORY TOTALLY i wonder how will i do for prelims. My most confident subject has totally made me feel like crap ive lost all my confidence im serious. I need some moral booster now i dontknw how am i gng to survive for the next one month someone save me please....

2007-08-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

Man = Fragile beings
Was there really such a huge bang that made him put his family, friends and loved ones aside and decided on that path. How this one move can impact the many around him. I pray for you to be happier wherever you may go, for your family to still be strong. There's always a part of my memory that has you in it.

2007-08-28T19:54:00.000+08:00

i love you. nothing you do can change my mind

Perfect tuesday thou it rained like crazy totally hate it
Decided to give myself a rest for today and i get to meet boyf what else can i ask for. (:

2007-08-11T14:48:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i just hate myself for doing what i always do, saying just anything that pops into my head.

2007-08-07T23:23:00.000+08:00

Okay so this week has been discounted --- national day (: Went for the ndp rehearsal, note its rehearsal which means that there wasnt any fireowrks or good bags, nothing okay but the contingent was cool shit. Totally taken aback by the airplanes and all damn nice seriously woo! Okay clubbing tmrw with dyan yiling pheb and tiff been friends with yiling for so long tmrw will be the first time clubbing with her. Wanted boyf to be there but too bad he cant make it, busy with ndp yo! Next time alright, promise (:

Alright time to sleep now goodnight world, and you silly donkey

2007-07-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

life has been great i wont say much cos im just enjoying what ive now (:
im gng to stay back in school for night study everyday from now onwards i need to start NOW!

2007-07-23T18:54:00.000+08:00

Ktv last friday was awesome, totally! Despite having winter in the room like we were in the igloo, there were definitely endless cold jokes to keep night alive. Not forgetting mic hoggers/emo boixxz, they seriously dontknw when to stop!

There're actually more pictures but im ABIT lazy to upload cos they're all in dyan's blog. OKAY im gng to get ready to meet my love now toddles! (:

2007-07-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

Omg i seriously need to do a little update. Look at my flying tags from the shades its cool shit yo!

Alright ive been busy with i dontknw what recently school and shopping i guess. I overspent this june and july i swear overspent seriously will stop after i buy three more other things (: JUST THREE not alot. I just need something happening to distract me from worrying too much it keeps getting deeper into me and i hope my fears will be gone soon. Certain things just dont go smoothly for me and im getting a little more than just scared as days pass you knw its just like stepping into school when ur hair is coloured and obviously you know ure gng to get caught but still you ask for trouble ya something along that line, i feel like stabbing myself.

Results are horrible and i think im dying soon. Gave my last words and im done with life. Oh well ive said this a million and one times, I WANT TO BE A MUGGER AND A MUGGER I SHALL BE. (:

2007-06-28T21:50:00.001+08:00

COMMS BALL bett and me yo. Hahha only photo ive cos i freaking had no camera with me!

However nonsensical life can be, im still alive which is so damn annoying. You know there are times when you just want to shut yourself up to the world and be alone for sometime? Im trying but not now, will reformat myself again after mids.

Aggie is already done with mids while i just had my 2nd paper today. GREAT! (:

2007-06-26T18:36:00.000+08:00

Im actually waiting for my photos to come, phoebeeee.

I refuse to write anything before i feel disgusting and annoying, which i already am feeling right now on the verge vomiting out of my head. Planned my finance and will start saving from now on. No more impulse spending for me no no!

I just found out yesterday that chloe is back, since last week. yay! You really cant blame me for being slow she didnt call im going to glue myself to the tv now bye.

2007-06-12T23:09:00.000+08:00

OMG i feel like a blardy loser who's stuck inside this mudpit, freaking helpless. I need to breathe for goodness sake. Studying tmrw. Finally? I dontknw ive been saying that since the start of hols. Anyhows goodnight world. I need to breathe, in my sleep.

2007-06-04T20:23:00.000+08:00

Nobody likes me
Everybody hates me
I'm going to eat some worms

No one tags me anymore. Does everyone hate me? *pouts*
I havent been pouting for a long long time. HAHAHAHA

2007-06-02T16:14:00.000+08:00

I think i'm sick.
I cant stop sneezing.
S T O P.

2007-05-31T13:37:00.000+08:00

Hello busy and happy week. Hua's birthday was more than just a dot of joy!

With great company and endless laughters, what more can i say? (:

2007-05-28T00:28:00.000+08:00

Ask me how much you mean to me...
And I wouldn't even know where to start
Ask me this love runs deep in me...
You won't find a deeper love in any heart
You could say you couldn't live one day without me...
You could say all your thoughts are about me...
You could think no other love could be as strong...
But you'd be wrong

Ask me just what I'd do for you...
And I'd tell you, "I would do anything."
Ask if this heart beats true for you...
I'd show you a truer heart could never be
You could say there's not a star you won't bring me...
You could think no other love could last as long...
But you'd be wrong

If you say that you love me, more than anybody,
than anyone's ever been loved before
As much as you love me...

I'll still love you more.

Familiarity lingers in me.

2007-05-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

I think i am dying. Dying some unknown old disease. I feel old and unwanted somehow. Or am i thinking too much? Honestly, i feel empty after cheerleading. Now ive nothing much to look forward to after sch.
"I am trying hard to move on." QUOTED FROM A.P.M PLS!
Ive to start studying real soon. Ive planned my june hols and more than half the time has been devoted to books. The other half is for Ashley. SHE'S COMING BACK BABY!! WWOOOOO!! IM SO SO LOOKING FORWARD TO HER RETURN. I CANT WAIT. SERIOUSLY!! Okayy, im getting abit way too excited.

Anyway, had seminar today at Raffles Marina. The place, COOL SHIT. Hahah. The trainer was alright, funny and all but i fell asleep cos couldnt stop sneezing. My stupid nose. Damn dumb. Hate it. And im at Sandra's house now, playing with Rusty. DAMN CUTE PLS. :D

2007-05-21T22:29:00.003+08:00

I wonder why i'm so angry/pissed. I WONDER WHY.

2007-05-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

I DONTKNW I DONTKNW.

2007-05-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

I hereby announce the death of my msn. Anyone wants to join me in using www.iloveim.com? Its DAMN cool pls! MSN, i hate you.

Lately ive been busy with practs and heats to bother abt any other stuff but now, thinking back, i kinda miss those days when i just sit back and smile to myself. I wonder when will i be able to again. Its not as simple as i thought so to pick myself up from where i fell. Its not as simple as how i always wanted it to be. I know all these come with a certain level of obstacle that are a stretch of paths ahead of me. I dontknw what's my aim in life now besides studying which i seriously am striving to leap over my limits. Ive to occupy myself with something productive other than cheerleading.

I dont like to be accused or wronged. If i really did something wrong, i wouldnt be such a fake and try to be nice to you. Im not that sort of person, i thought you knew.

2007-04-30T17:45:00.000+08:00

At times i dontknw if i'm happy or am i just relieved. Strange things happen all the time and its quite impossible to follow up, which i wish i could. Have you ever wondered what is it like to be stuck in a dilemma? Or rather, a scene where juliet cant find her romeo anymore and suddenly prince william came into the picture with cinderella and ariel? Okay. Whatever. I just feel like crap now. Totally. And my msn is spoilt. For like 2 weeks, ive been trying to troubleshoot that damn thing which just wouldnt function normally. Screw you stupid msn. Dont make me hate you.

Peace out yo.

2007-04-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

Cheer practs are like super fun now. Totally. Stunts and more stunts. And dear Shaiful actually pushed me off his shoulders when i was trying to get down. How nice! Thank goodness i was caught in the nick of time. And i'll repeat myself again. Everyone in cheerleading is one hell crazy bunch of fun with nice nice people. (:

Dyan darling, i feel you. Really. I know how is it like and im feeling the same way too. We're always together, inside out, outside in. You get what i mean right. (((:

Ashhhie! When are you calling me? Im like waiting patiently here. Really patiently. Call me real soon kayy! I miss you alot!

2007-04-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

Right now, i just want to have some quiet time on my own, to just sit at a corner of my bed and do some thinking. No more dates for me till i feel like it. This sudden influx of people coming into my life is shocking me. Too much for me to handle within so little time. Perhaps i should just sit down and start planning my life as a H.M. I know i need to start studying soon and studying isnt doing homework yes i know. ALright. Shall start soon. (:

Anyway, watched my first entire soccer match with the boy and i fell asleep. What an experience!

2007-04-15T21:27:00.000+08:00

Did i announce that i got a 2 for pw? OHYES I DID AND IM HAPPY. No one in my class got a 1 and the whole cohort, only 19 1s, 15 came from Rachel Chia's class, which means that the rest mainly should come from Steph Wong's class, leaving the rest of us with 2s and 3s and heard that someone got a 4. Oh well, ive gotten my 2 and im glad. (:

Regrets usually come
After making mistakes.

2007-04-14T13:58:00.000+08:00

In another words, i love home. (:

I do realise that ive been updating once a month. Im lazy basically. This week has been pretty exciting for me. Cheer practs were fun to the max pls. Everyone in the squad are nice people and super hyper! :D I want more i want more!

And i just remember my unfulfilled shopping trip with the best mate like since before the hols till now. Till then, i think i'd be broke. (: Thank goodness ive something to do later if not i'd be drying up at home soaking up air.
Please tell me ure driving.

2007-04-10T19:10:00.000+08:00

moving on now is so much easier.
no more heartaches and cracks.
i love you my dearies. (:

2007-03-13T01:07:00.000+08:00

sore throat sore throat please go away
i want to scream and shout like everyday.

okay. i didnt talk much today. seriously. gd night.

2007-03-04T16:13:00.000+08:00

This week has been a blast! No one will know how i feel. Seriously. With all the many downs ive been facing lately, i managed to pull through with smiles. I passed napha with pretty good results, considering that i stopped going for netball trainings since after promos. YES THAT LONG. I PASSED! :D on top of that, i passed chinese As! Thank God! Its not exactly a miracle but more of a surprise, a pleasant one. (:

Ive been showered with gummies, postcards and checks. Thanks dearies. AND, was MANNY'S BIRTHDAY yest! Everything that uve given to me on my birthday, im always double of you, with an extra touch of loveeeee!! :DDDD

(:

2007-02-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

Today has been rather tensed up for me. Things dont seem to be the same on this wednesday, the whole of today. I was trying very hard to take deep breaths and relax. Relax lynette. Well, i tried. I thought this week is going to be fun and lovable but somehow my thoughts arent blending well together with reality. Ive got nothing much to say now besides telling myself to relax. I love you okay lyn. Yes. I love myself. Ive got to learn to appreciate myself.

Good night world. Hello slumber. (:

2007-02-17T11:02:00.000+08:00

HELLO LONG FORGOTTEN BLOG!

Im back to life. (: done with common test and all the nonsense. Passed econs and accounts! Happy happy!! But im pretty sure im going to flunk my hist paper. The sbq stinked. This week has been a pretty relax week with all the vday, total defence and cny stuff, this week sounds pretty short! (: Spent vday without boyfriend this year. ): Thankfully i had friends to spend it with. And yest's cny celebration was not too bad. very different from the normal bartley's celebration. We'd usually form train chain and run around the audi but yest the school was pretty dead. But heck, i was having my own kind of fun back there with sandra and lenice.

ANDDD, met my precious one at night. Thanks for meeting me even though you were tired. Really happy that ure mine. (:

BYE. nails painting time!

2006-12-10T16:36:00.000+08:00

I dont dread updating blogs. but ive got nth to write abt. but i do now. guess i owe alil updates. alrighty! first up, HAPPY DECEMBER EVERYBODAAAYYYY!! secondly, IM DAMN SAD. dont ask me why. thirdly, ive these :

IAN'S BIRTHDAY

And baby, I MISS YOU ALREADY. ))):

Dont worry. I'll tke good care of myself. Make sure you do too.
I love you precious.

2006-11-24T16:57:00.000+08:00

Life is a charade. Okay, sometimes.

I have been thinking what i should do to make my life a little more colourful. my hols has officially started on wed and i dont seem to feel any joy coming my direction. hello joy, where're you? lying on the bed till 1-ish, couching potatoes the whole day, staring at the comp screen till its bedtime. sounds just like the life of a no lifer and thats me. but still, i dont want this nov to end. and i hope it nv ends. put me to sleep. i dont want to wake up to this dullness. do i really have to slit myself to see some colour. okay, bye. im gng to colour myself.

2006-11-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

My blog is worth $8,468.10.
How much is your blog worth?

i thought my blog would worth more than chong ches's. I THOUGHT.

2006-11-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

hello intensive econs lessons.
five hours of econs a day, keeps ur brain cells spreading in ur head.
honestly, two periods of econs is bad enough, now ive like 5hrs a day?! ITS HORRIFYING.

but the thing that took my mind away wasnt lessons. im just shocked and sad. not disappointed but just cant bear. i knw i will have to face that sooner or later but i dont want i dont want! how i wish its alrdy over. maybe two days later? hur hur. NOT FUNNY LYNETTE.

Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows
YOui're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothin'
in this world I can't be
I never know what you see but there's
somethin' in the way you look at me

2006-10-31T10:48:00.000+08:00

pw is killing me. its taking away my life. i'd rather choke to death than let pw kill me. this is the worse sch life ever. i dont like pw. im supposed to have hols now! N O W. kill me. kill me. KILL ME.

2006-10-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

like ive said, life is like a roller coaster. for every ups, theres always a down. no one can stay up there forever. i need my up now. i dreamt of myself being killed in an accident. how i wish that could happen to me. i cant expect anything from life. there's nothing to expect either.

2006-10-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

life is like a roller coaster. up and down it goes, never cease to be accompanied by excitement.
i need a roller coaster ride now!

2006-10-20T21:59:00.000+08:00

what am i doing here, wasting earth's resources?
im nothing but shame.

2006-10-15T23:39:00.000+08:00

just when i was about to edit my WR, rena called. well, i had no idea why but now i knw. no one there was feeling good. everyone was holding back their hidden tears to stay away from the wet talks. things happen for a reason and ive realised that life is vulnerable. it really is.

For a chill
from the song
for a friend
for the love to keep me save and warm
I turn to you
for the strength to be strong
for the will to carry on---
for everything you do
for everything that's true
I turn to you.......

chinghui, you can always count on us for a shoulder to lean on.

2006-10-15T14:09:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel like killing myself. you knw when ur emotions take over ur whole mind, when you simply cant think of anything but just use ur feelings to express ur thoughts? thats how i have been feeling for the past 2days, and now even. and at times you get overpowering urge to want to do something that will hurt someone, but you cant stop, becauseeeeeeeeee ure one who lets ur emotions climb over you ; and thats me. alot of times i just blurt out the first thing that comes to my mind, thinking seldom visit and thats how i get myself and people around me upset. im so sick of myself being so sensitively touch-me-not. it irritates me. even i dont like myself, who would?

you mean so much to me.

2006-10-12T09:07:00.000+08:00

Another day is passing by
Im thinking about you all the time.

i want to go home. promos results are scaring me fullstop. i need a break. i cant stand this suspicion no more. the feeling of not being filtered with infor just makes me want to puke. my mind is twirling, imaging myself doing smth else. it looks like i will have extra holidays. boy, my life's practically screaming for salvation, begging me for an assurance. if that helps. God, i pray for a miracle to happen if disaster falls.

will you stay by me when things fall apart?

2006-10-09T12:32:00.000+08:00

i think this is a total waste of time. coming to sch for pw, facing the comp from 8 onwards? this is crazy. break pls! alright, just had macdonalds. (: school food can kill and i need smth outside here. im still stuck in sch, doing WR. and the worse hasnt come. IM GOING TO COMFORT DELGRO FOR SURVEY! like huhh? its like so totally pointless to me. cos im l a z y. thanks. i cant help but feel that this is the worse sch period. well anw, spore dreaming tmrw. what a movie. like hello? its a pause from pw and its nice. (: the thought that im gng out of sch tmrw is nice. im coming at 9 tmrw. i cant get up so early just to sing national anthem and doing pw. this will drive me to the corner of my bed.

my tags so quiet. hello, ive a HALOSCAN for you to halo me. (:

2006-10-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

everyone has their first time in anything. and, i had my first carl's junior burger! all thanks to chai hua and phebs. (: i dint knw their burgers are that huggeee. im not ku ku right? i believe there're others who hasnt tried yet. OH OH OH! and i dint knw there's shutter bus from suntec to the train station. honestly i dint knw. from the bottom of my heart. tell me im not slow pls. OOOOOOOH. we sat the super cute motorised trolley bus. WEEEE. and till now, carl's burger is still floating inside me since 2? i wonder why is it called carl's junior. but i really love that place. that happy star, makes me feel happy.

i want to go on a holiday with you. (:

2006-10-05T23:25:00.000+08:00

cling clong clang!
i think the sun is rising. i want to get that zara flowery dress. the one che told me to put it back. i think its nice. why not?! your dress sense's changing che. WHOOPS. love kay. dinner with che and aggie last night was a slurp! filled with lots of laughter and endless jokes.

BUT before dinner was the wonder of the day. love the place and the weather. i want more pls! met bb after the one and only last paper. was definately the happiest moment. had plentiful of funny fun and burpings. i aspire to be a poet in future to write poems of our experiences. :D

i look very much like a retard, dont i?

with the perfect weather and great company, what more can i say? (:

2006-10-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

being flooding myself with notes and books and more notes and books still, saturday was magnificent. :D met baby and im honestly H A P P Y. alright, half the world is enjoying freedom and ive like TWO more days to go. oh well, im fine with it. everything will end real soon! i cant wait!! WEEEE. ive a long list of things to do after exams :

1) spend all my time with bb.
2) zara dress
3) get the orange crumpler ; i dont want green anymore
4) swimming ; sentosa's alil too sandy i dont really like the feeling anymore

thats all for now. SHOPPING SPREE PLS!
haha. and where will the cash come from...
i shall stop wandering around and date my books now.

*toddles*

2006-09-13T18:40:00.000+08:00

today was a tiring day thou sch ended early. still, its the tiredness that has been accumulated inside me. i can smell the scent of exams and this friday's chinese ; FAST. im not exactly NOT prepared for chinese. i knw its either a D or C. i hope i can get a B which i knw its not totally impossible. i will do my best! ohh. and today's econs was pretty much on our own cos a grp of em had to help out in some i-dontknw-what-econs game thingy. sooooo we were left to do this case study ourselves. i ALMOST fell aslp. really. thankfully, there's my ipod (thanks bb!). i isolated myself and started doing my own work. see, told you ive changed. HEEHEE.

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2006-09-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

i need a breeaakkkk. i feel insane. maybe i REALLY am. went out with bb yest. its been real long time. i love you more and more and more. but i told myself im not gng to rely too much on him. i dont want to be a leech. so irritating. all i want is just to have you by my side. (:

i love you shmeer.

2006-09-10T21:31:00.000+08:00

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word of the day : suasion
1. the act of advising, urging, or attempting to persuade; persuasion.
2. an instance of this; a persuasive effort.

lyn has been such a good girl. ive been studying you knw! *claps* after yest, what bb told me, i cant get it outta of my head. so ive decided to be consistent in my studies. i knw its too late to say all these now BUT still, at least im trying right?

alright! im hitting back to my books now. actually, im gng to shower. cheers! lyn has changed. I KNOWWWW. awwwww. (:

2006-09-07T17:47:00.000+08:00

THIS IS DAMN COOL! TRY THIS OUT PEOPLE!

(CLICK THIS) you'll NOT regret! (:

yest was a blast! (: spore idol! was a last min thingy. caihua had extra ticks so i went. JONATHAN LEONG!!! 1900-1120-1904.

home alone today. told you im a loner.

EDIT: 1900-112-1904!!
anw, JONATHAN'S ALREADY IN!! WOOOOTS!

2006-09-06T11:27:00.000+08:00

Racial Harmony. yeahhh NONG NONG AGO.

National Day.

long agoooo

all i can say is that im happy just to be with you. (: you alone.

2006-09-03T17:05:00.000+08:00

i have never had such bad cramps before. puked and shivered. went to the hospital and got a jab. i was practically shivering throughout. and im better now. thank god. i had cramps. how i wish im not a girl.

2006-09-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

Tell your mother, your brother, your sister, and your friend.
And the others, your lovers, better not be present tense.
Cause I want everyone to know that you are mine and no one else's!
Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you
Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do
(what you do).
You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon.
You got soul, you got class.
You got style ya bad ass - oh yeah!
Ain't no other man it's true - alright -
Ain't no other man but you.

i miss you darling.. ): call me quick pls.

no one else knows me like you do.

2006-08-29T10:15:00.000+08:00

accounting accounting accounting. i LOVE this lesson, for now. its comp lab. i love this week. 3days of school and thats week. this week's good! (:
but without you, there's no blast.

I MISS YOU!! ): when will we meet?

2006-08-21T00:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 15TH MNTH ANNI!
200806
though we havent met for quite long, dont worry. i still love you. (:

went for Jedd's 1st mnth yest. HE'S SO TINY PLS. it feels like i can break his bones without even using any strength. helped tab tke pictures for her art prelims. i was made a fool i promise. *tabitha tang*

okay. im bored and have nth to do now. gd night!

i love you!

2006-08-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

the one on my mind. the one i miss. the one i want. the one i love.

ain't no other man.

2006-07-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

i like her!

and i know who likes her (:

im really tired of pw. ):

2006-07-20T19:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 14TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY.

i wonder who's scolding me. ive been sneezing frantically since 7. this is weird.
i want you..... really.

2006-07-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sittin in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleepin on the floor
Shes Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

i love this song. i dontknw why. i feel like crap now. if only i dont wake up from dreams that nv bring nightmares. im dreaming again.

2006-07-17T17:19:00.000+08:00

im very down today. right now, all i want is you. just you.

almost everyone dint do well for accounts paper 1. dint have accounting today so will only get back tmrw. hopefully i can pass. this is the first i feel so scared of getting paper. and hist paper 2, only those who hand up ALL their work get to see their papers. i had ONE more so i handed up after break. will get back soon i guess. i studied and i hope i can pass. well, i hope.

THREEdays.

2006-07-15T19:07:00.000+08:00

im such a boring person. i spent one whole day eating, watching tv, staring at the ceiling, painting my nails(i tried like 5 colours), meddling with my blog, playing bejewel, photobucket, blog hopping, blah blah. actaully, i did alot. but im such a bore. im going to watch more tv now.

i miss you, ALOT.

2006-07-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

did i say that exams are over? yes its over but im not as excited as i thought i'd be. dint go to sch today and i kept thinking that ive to study for exam tmrw. ive this study addiction disease. im dying inside. ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2006-07-14T00:56:00.000+08:00

THE CANs

Can you blow a bubble?:
lovesss!

Can you dance?:
i dance ballet (:

Can you do a cart wheel?:
i think so?

Can you tie a cherry stem with your tongue?:
never tried!

Can you touch your toes?:
yes...!

Can you whistle?:
i tried very hard to.

Can you wiggle your ears?:
wiggle? im not some gambling queen who wiggles her ears to listen to the dice.

Can you wiggle your nose?:
wiggle wiggle.

THE DIDs

Did you ever run away from home?:
im a good girl. i love my home.

Did you ever want to be a doctor?:
when i was watching doctors on tv i did.

Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?:
yes! when there was wangxi putting out fire on tv.

Did you ever want to be a police officer?:
i wanted to be traffic police. drive vrrooomm vroooommmmmm!

THE DOs

Do you know how to swim?:
yes i knw!!

Do you like roller coasters?:
scaredd. im a coward.

Do you own a bike?:
bicycle?

Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?:
NEVER.

THE DOES'

Does hair loss run in your family at all?:
brown hair? i have em.

Does your car get good gas mileage?:
i dont have car lehhhh

Does your family have family picnics?:
used to. but not anymore. ):

THE HAVEs

Have you ever been on a plane?
AEROPLANEEEE. YESSS!

Have you ever asked someone out?:
have have. i always ask bb to meet me.

Have you ever been asked out by someone?
excuse me, ive friends who still want to go out with me!

Have you ever been to the ocean?:
i think so. went to aussie!

Have you ever gone fishing?
i think its quite boring. i dontknw why che loves it.

Have you ever painted your nails?
MY NAILS ARE MY ART PAPER.

THE HOWs

How did you find out about Friendster?:
tab bugged me to sign up.

How many of them have you met in person?
all are my friends. if not why is it FRIENDster.

THE WHATs

What are you listening to?:
the start of something newwwww!(:

What is the temperature outside?:
i dontknw. dark dark. scary scary.

What radio station do you listen to?:
perfect 10!

What was the last restaurant you ate at?
with bb at swensens. tweet tweet.

What was the last thing you bought?
chicken cutlet for dinner. haha.

What was the last thing you had to drink?:
ribena!

What was the last thing on TV you watched?:
high school musical!

THE WHOs

Who is your newest friend you have on Friendster?
ive no new friends........

Who was the last person you smsed?
shmeer baby (:

Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?:
baby! i called him after my oral. (((:

Who is your current crush?
no crushes but just a precious boyfriend.

Who was the last person you took a picture of?
shit. che came back to sch today and i forgot to tke a photo of her. SHE LOST WEIGHT!

Who was the last person to leave you a comment?
im a boring person. no one leaves me any comments.

Who was the last person you said I love you to?
everyone who knws me knws who that is - my baby! :D

2006-07-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

BAZAAR
midnight beach rave-cum-bazaar

YOUTH EMPIRE is organising a midnight beach rave and bazaar at siloso beach, sentosa, on 1 september 2006. we are currently looking for interested bazaar store holders.

each store will be 2 metres by 2 metres, there will be a deopsit of $70 of which $40 will be refunded after the event. you will be able to sell any products or services in the bazaar, in fact you are encouraged to come up with unique and provocative ideas! Second-hand vintage goods, food, hair services (braiding, hair spray etc.) or even interesting game stalls like beer punk, kissing/stripping booth, arm wrestling, condom blowing or whatever creative game ideas you can think of!

or if you are able to do tarrot cards readings, do hardo gay or miss swam impersonations, provide make-overs; or any other interesting concepts, we need you to spice up our event!

the most unique store will stand a chance to win a pair of return trip tickets to new york for a one in a lifetime experience of their world famous flea market.

for more information regarding the bazaar or the event, please contact us!

julianne seah 81716978
cheryl chong 91908547

COME JOIN IN THE FUNNNN!! :D LOVES

2006-07-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

went for bb's concert just now. ling accompanied me. so sweeet of her. thanks darling. (: we almost couldnt get in cos we reached at like 255 when the concert's at 3. the management was like 'sorry pls hold on and form a line. the response for today's concert is overwhelming and we have to check if there's any more seats available'. haha. thank god we were given seats. and we sat like at the 4th row super near the piano and bb. but guess what. bb was sitting BEHIND the piano and throughout the whole concert, i could only see his legs and his head popping up from behind the piano. was fun. the whole thing was cute. thank goodness ling enjoyed herself too if not i'll feel guilty asking her along and she dint enjoy.

met bb after that and had dinner. he was SOOOO tired. his bag was SOOOO heavy. i havent seen such a silly boy. (: couldnt have counted how many times he yawned. and that fellow wants to watch soccer ltr. i was hoping he cant stay up till that late and i still am hoping he'll fall aslp while waiting. hohoho. i bet he has fallen aslp. maybe not.

he was so tired, he refused to smile.

2006-07-08T14:52:00.000+08:00

mommy's scolding my bro now. there's a wedding dinner tonight at 730 and my bro insist to go to church now and insist that will end at 6. oh man. who doesnt knw what his 6 is. he promised to be back by 12 last night after his band concert and guess what time he was back. 1. his hp was off and no one could connect him. all these scoldings cant get me to concentrate.

hist is making me head burst. YAYNESS! tmrw's bb's concert! :D

I MISS YOUUUUU!

2006-07-06T17:48:00.000+08:00

OHYES. THANKS CHE!! LOVESSSSS. she made my haloscan! :D

i thought that today's econs essay has only 2 qns. 2hr15min on 2 qns. i wasnt thinking right. ya. i only knew this morning that there's supposed to be THREE. but anw, it doesnt matter much. the topics i studied were tested but thennnnnnnnnnnnnn nvm. im planning my study plan for the weekend. i want to be kiasu and honestly, this is my first time studying so hard for mids. i dint at all last yr. hmm, im changing.. :DDDDD

I MISS YOU!! i want to seeyou soon.

2006-07-04T18:30:00.000+08:00

TWO papers down. no sch tmrw. i feel so lost and empty after the hist paper today. ive no freaking idea why. just like mommy agreed to buy you that dress which you wanted for since ages ago and suddenly she said she's not gng to anymore. that jaw widening moment was what a experienced. the ans for qns4, i wrote it for qns5. ): i was really appalled. i dint knw what to do and the first thing i did after i knew i mixed up the ans, was to msg bb. i was so disappointed with myself. i studied okay. but i got mixed up. maybe i have grown smarter. i thought i did. sobs.

2006-07-02T18:39:00.000+08:00

i screwed up my blog AGAIN. wanted to do smth new, tke a break frm books. but guessed its right. im really not a computer person. alright, back to books then.

study. STUDY. study.

(:

2006-07-01T21:11:00.000+08:00

There's not a star in heaven that we cant reach.

i'm worried.
i dontknw what you are doing now.
i dontknw where you are.
am i still special to you?

and you made my life worthwhile, its all about you.

2006-06-25T02:04:00.000+08:00

im doing hist STILL. its 201. wokay. ive myself to blame. im procrastinate queen. (: ive two more paras to write and i bet ure wondering wth am i here blogging and not finish that pathetic TWO paras right. i need a break! they're giving me HEADACHES.

anw, CORRECTION from the sakae post. TERRANCE went too. he joined us after awhile. guess what he was doing there? to eat, duh! but who knws the ulterior motive was. *hints* and he left with her ltr to somewhere la ya. haha. wokay! im done. off to hisory! LOVES! (:

i love my shmeer!

2006-06-24T02:10:00.000+08:00

Your Inner Retro Girl Is

1960s Mod Girl

What Retro Girl Are You?

2006-06-22T22:06:00.000+08:00

look at her hairrrrr

HAPPY HOLIDAYS! i was actually enjoying myself ALOT until recently. i can feel that sense of terror coming my way. its like having a horrifying lizard in ur room waiting to smile at you. its the scary mids. how i wish ive brains like che. i want to be smart. she's super smart to me. i admire her BRAINS thats all. well i knw i am actually, smarter now. (:

went for sakae with the girls yest. eat and laughed. we totally enjoyed ourselves. then ltr lenice and caihua went off, left with ling and me. we walked and laughed and took pics. haha. was fun fun fun! anw i feel like im dying soon. bye my love and all my friends.

2006-06-18T16:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

its sunday an another boring day. pw i hate. so many things happened during this hols! spent time with bb! :D when sch starts, we only have weekends. nah, and wed and fri, IF there's no netball. i just found out that my bro lost the digicam. no wonder it went missing for nearly 2mnths. and that fellow has been using my special notepad to write his game stuff. irritating! after tonight, its left with only ONE WEEK of hols. i hate the sound of it. SCCCHHHOOOOLLLLL. im gng to study and mke full use of my brains. I WILL!!

2006-06-12T23:22:00.001+08:00

You're it, you’re the Ultimate,
It's automatic I'm sure of it.
No lie, so don't even try
To tell me that you're not the guy.
Cuz I've been waiting all my life for someone just like you,
But you're it. You’re the Ultimate you.

alright. dint go for acc on fri and this thurs ive to go back for mock exam. at least im not alone. its nice to knw uve company. (: have to start studying now. i feel guilty for not studying. i will study. I PROMISE!

2006-06-12T23:22:00.000+08:00

2006-06-03T16:55:00.000+08:00

mommy's sick and ive to do all the housechores. call me cinderella pls! too bad, no step sisters. argh! i want to go out! but couching potatoes are making things not so good. should i cute my hair? like really short short kinda cut. but i think better not. dont want to look like rubbish dump girl. im nt gng to do anything then. boring. bye.

2006-06-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

i miss you baby! hols are here finally!! i can spend more time with you now. (: so happy happy happy!! :D my cramps are killing me. totally. i need to like get rid of the pain asap. but i dontknw how. its drowning me into depression. gd night.

2006-05-31T13:29:00.000+08:00

baby, i love you! i love you! i love you! i love you!i love you!i love you!i love you!i love you!i love you!i love you!i love you!i love you!i love you!i love you!i love you!

2006-05-31T11:38:00.000+08:00

gd morning! im supposed to be at sentosa now for the leadership thingy but im at hm. im SICK ya. waiting for bb to call. 'hopefully before 12'. im waitingggggggggg. wokay! im just bored. im home alone. its quite a nice feeling thou. ling came over to my place yest to cook pasta! we put lettuce inside and it dint turn out quite as well as we thought so. who cares anw. right down into our tummies it goes.

bb hasnt called!
alright. i'll go paint my nails and wait for him.

later!

2006-05-30T00:50:00.001+08:00

wokay. updates frm caihua's birthday. im alil not in the write a post mood now.

2006-05-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

mommy's going overseas tmrw. and on monday, it's daddy's turn. ive to leave with my monster brother till they get back. imagine, ive to wash the clothes, sweep the floor, mop the floor, get my own food, hang the clothes. i can only do the wash dishes part. i think i'll die.

celebrated mommy'e birthday today. brought her for dinner. ate and im super full. ROUND BELLY. whatever! no one cares about me anw.

2006-05-25T21:54:00.000+08:00

i miss you. miss you alot alot. ):

2006-05-25T13:38:00.000+08:00

hees. thanks che. so cute, so thoughtful. che, the less depressed child, knws im into polka dots and she got me this yellow polka dotted shorts. and my purple polka dotted blog. WOOTS. SOOOOO CUTEE. ilubeuu! anw now i knw the difference between upp thomson and OLD upp thomson. (:

my EX-classmate,

2006-05-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

i miss you.):

swee eng knws i miss him alot and she drew a drawing of him. and obviously it doesnt look anywhere near bb. but still, thanks everything. (:

gd night.

2006-05-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

there's just so much i want to tell you. so much happened in school today. i nearly exploded. i thought of you. i love the cookies. i ate only 2. i cant bear to finish. im scared that once i eat, i cant stop and all will be gone. i dont want.

"love precisely requires us to strip it away from all circumstances, all notions, all pre-conceptions, every single thing, before we can see it truly. forget all the shit, forget all the disappointments. you can't see nuts if you have those thoughts hovering in your mind. love is just love, don't attach it with pre-conceptions. it's meant to be seen as a lone intangible entity that only manifests when you can forgive and forget mistakes and flaws." -che
i feel that what she said thou its super emo but i agree. totally.

can someone tell him how much he means to me, pls.

2006-05-22T20:30:00.000+08:00

no one knows me better than you do. i miss you shmeer..):

today, lenice and me had this talk with our ht about our common test results. he talked about what other teachers feel about our study attitude and for a moment we felt like we were problem kids. and later he said that he'll see everyone subsequently. we were made to write a personal pledge to meet our desired target for mids. so did the rest who had seen him before us. how caring of our ht.

my heel hurts like crazy and i had to limp around everywhere. i think ive a problem. the school's toilet(the one outside lr4, third from the left) exploded in my face. lenice told me to open the door before flushing. i did. somehow, i think the toilet bowl must have hated me for peeing in it. it bombed right below me. and my heel still hurts alot. feels like there's extra bone growing, at the wrong time, wrong place.

i'm not moving anywhere away from you.
i'm going to sleep now and not think of anything.
gd night.

2006-05-21T15:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ONE YEAR MY DEAREST (:
its been a gd one year with you. thou its rather bumpy in the middle of our r/s but uve nv given up. thanks hon.

yest was my disppointing day. i'd be lying if i said im not. im sad. leaving me alone wont help. i'll just end up crying miserably in my room. i knw what i want and what i need. all i need most is a comforting hug from you. but no matter what it is, this is only the start of another rainbow thats shining.

Strain this chaos turn it into light
I've got to see you one last night
Before the lions take their share
Leave us in pieces, scattered everywhere

Just give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cos you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cos you are all that I have

You're cinematic razor sharp
A welcome arrow through the heart
Under your skin feels like home
Electric shocks on aching bones

Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cos you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cos you are all that I have

There is a darkness deep in you
A frightening magic I cling to

Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear now you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear now you are all that I have

i love you.